Where faith has brought me in life

Perhaps… life isn’t meant to be easy
Perhaps… it is not meant to be understood
But to live a life for a purpose is to have faith… in yourself and whatever you choose to have faith for

I guess that I just want to have change into a better person each day

To have a heart that is filled with compassion like my Lord’s heart

To learn to love with compassion

To take each day with joy and be grateful for each day that is given to me


To be honest, I often can't find the answers to satisfy my over-demanding set of questions about God, life’s misery, my purpose, the unknown future and problems that come around at times.

Sometimes in doubt I wonder, do You really believe in me? Do God really think that I can do things that seem impossible? Does He really expect me to forgive those who have hurt me the most? Does He really think that I, the imperfect Vivi with so many sins, mistakes and stupidity carved in her book of life story, be able to change for the better?

For now, I only know that my faith is my strength in which I build my foundation to change. And that faith has definitely changed me from my old self… according to many people’s testimonies… and I am glad that I have faith in God… even though some people call me stupid for having faith in a being that cannot be seen or able to be proved scientifically…

I only know that I am a much happier person and a much better individual than who I used to be. I guess that my faith has helped me able to get out from the stormy days that I had gone through… in which I may not be alive today if I do not have this faith.

Even though my faith might be wrong, just as some people argued, at least it personally helped me… And I don’t feel that I am losing anything because I gained so much more.

Whatever your faith is, whoever you are, whatever you think about God, it does not really matter to me because I will still become your friend.

But I really hope that you’ll find a faith that is true for you and can make you better…

Because I think that a this life that is full of problems like ours, each one of us needs a sanctuary to get away from the hectic set of thunderstorm that blows out our head at times.

Do you have faith in having faith?