My Confession

I have just realized something… I’ve realized how ignorant I can get sometimes and how I see things from the shallow surface without really looking at the future and the hidden meanings behind those things…



Ok, this gets quite confusing…Geezz... I guess that I am too focused on the “right now” moment and often forget about the future circumstances or the facts of the past. I guess that I need to change my view point.



There are people I need to forgive, mistakes and pains that I need to let go, people that I need to give a second chance too. Basically, on the Easter service at church, I felt like I need to accept those who have done deeds that I wasn’t happy about and give them a second chance. God forgives my sins and so should I…



I guess that I need to learn to be carefree and not give a care about many things in the world. I need to learn to forgive and forget. I need to see my own imperfections and annoying behaviour before I get annoyed at someone.



Overall, every human was born good (I think) and it’s up to each person to feed the goodness he/she already has planted inside his/her heart.



When Jesus was on the cross He said, “Father, forgive them because they don’t know what they are doing.”



I need to say the similar prayer. I need to tell myself, “Vivi, forgive them because they don’t know what they are doing.”



I know that some people purposely use you. Some people don’t mean to, some people are plain mean and some people are plain annoying.



I also know that some people are genuinely nice, genuinely caring and genuinely kind-hearted and nice.



There are good and bad. There are good friends and bad friends. Each one of them is a human and no human is perfect, just like myself.



My good friends stay with me throughout my most boring, depressed, annoying and stupid moments. They are the people I cherish the most because they have seen my worst side of personality and character yet still stay by my side.



There are people who I have felt annoyance, disgust and irritation towards. Some of the cases are caused by them but some of the cases are the things I can forget and forgive. I can continue to hang out and accept them as imperfect human-beings just because I am far from perfect. Most importantly because God loves and accepts everyone regardless of their past and character so why can't I do the same?



Also, because my good friends have taught me to accept people’s mistakes and worst sides of personality.



So, “Father, forgive me because I didn’t know what I was doing.”